I can only hope you haven’t forgotten about me..

Everything is just telling me to let go…

I wish I could just pack up everything you left behind, stuff it in a shoe box, and hide it in the way back of my closet like they do in the movies.

Too bad all that you left me was was a broken heart and messed up feelings that I can’t let go of. All I have are memories of how you said you’d never let me go. I should have said goodbye when I had the chance. I lost it and you got to win. Congratulations for destroying everything you’d led me to believe in.

Don’t come back to tell me to hold on. Don’t try to say it wasn’t what you had hoped. You made your choice, and I’m trying to accept that. So just accept this:

It’s just time to finally let go

Tan!

All natural sunlight (neither of the pictures are edited). I love the beach; though everybody keeps warning me about skin cancer. Also, this isn’t even an up to date picture. Maybe I’ll take one when I go tomorrow<3

Tan!

All natural sunlight (neither of the pictures are edited). I love the beach; though everybody keeps warning me about skin cancer. Also, this isn’t even an up to date picture. Maybe I’ll take one when I go tomorrow<3

If anybody has requests for me to do, feel free to ask! :)

If anybody has requests for me to do, feel free to ask! :)

I still feel we would have been wonderful together; if only we hadn’t been thousands of miles apart :/

You ruined my trust; now all I want is to get you back.

It’s Only You.

I never wanted today to come. I swore up and down I wouldn’t wanna hear it. We don’t talk much anymore, but I saw your post on Facebook and saw you’re leaving to fight. I’m scared; more than I should be. I never knew you’d mean this much. You might have forgotten about me but I never forgot about you. I miss Those Nights and you said we’d never have a Last Night. Maybe time came and went and we didn’t cherish that.

I wanna go back to staying up late just so we could laugh at each other. To where I’d call you fat and you’d swear up and down you’re more fit than anybody you knew. I miss when you made small jokes about me and how I had no come back then just to laugh. You were always there and hopeful when nobody else was. It was so easy to talk to you. I really don’t wanna say goodbye. Not today and not tomorrow. I never want to hear any news you won’t be coming back. 

Stay safe, you’re a great person with a beautiful personality. Any girl will be lucky to be married to you. I hope one day I really do get that phone call. Don’t make it too late.

It’s still there..

I still remember that look we gave each other almost a year ago. I felt a sharp pain as you looked up from the window; never knew I’d feel like that. I didn’t think I’d see you so soon because I didn’t know how’d you’d react after what I found out just hours earlier.

I guess that’s when I first felt like everything might be alright cause you had that look in your eye that gave me hope; maybe second chances we’re able to be dealt. I’m glad I played that chance ‘cause I wouldn’t be here without saying I’d wanted to wait and see. 

No, trust hasn’t fully returned and I remain heavily guarded; you just don’t know it. I still suspect it can happen again and maybe that’s what got me to that place before. They say whenever you think it’s gonna happen, it most likely will. So far you’ve been  there and following your word. Lets hope the past won’t repeat itself while I count down the rest of the days. 

'I'm Sorry' never solved the problem; it's still there and it hurts like hell.